Black Abyss

I love to write. I especially love to write poetry. The only problem is that in order for me to write anything good, I need to go into a deep, dark place inside of myself. I don't write "happy", I write "sad". I don't like going to this place inside of myself; thinking about thinks I would rather not thing about...love lost, death, or other great sadness. I, however, feel myself slipping into one of those moods, naturally, not because I want to write. I should embrace it as a time to write and get my emotions out, but instead, I am dreading it. I don't want to deal with the emotions. I don't want to deal with bringing myself back out of it once I have written all my emotions down. I don't want to deal with any discoveries I might make while I am in that sadness. I usually discover something, and this time, I don't want to find out that discovery. Maybe it's because I am at a place in my life where I am happy, and I don't want anything to ruin that. Or, maybe I am just dreading the blackness that usually surrounds my world during this mood. Either way, I am sinking further into my abyss. I think I will start putting my emotions to paper and see if any greatness will come.